I'm a Big Girl, I Can Take It

There are few things I hate more than being lied to. If I ask you a question don't try to protect me from the truth. I am tired of being dragged along because people are afraid of hurting me. While you think you are protecting me, in reality you are being incredibly self-centered. How do you not see that being dragged along wouldn't hurt me more than being told the simple truth? Sometimes the truth is painful, but when you lie the pain lingers far longer.


I was in a marriage full of lies, so am I a little hypersensitive to it now? Probably. Who wouldn't be? But I learned a lot from that marriage. Actions speak louder than words. Don't tell me what I want to hear because you don't want to hurt me. Lying gets us nowhere. Save us both the heartache and let's move on.

I am a Child of God and So is He

After a particularly difficult night missing my baby and wanting so much to hold him right now, I've had to come to the realization that that little boy was my Heavenly Father's first. When I think about how much I love him it is hard to comprehend that Heavenly Father loves him more. As his mother I want nothing more than to protect him from the evils of this world, to take away the pain, to make his life easier, but I have to let him go through these things in order for him to grow. I have to turn that trust over to the Lord and remember that he is his child too. He is going to watch over him when I can't.

I love that little boy so much, it's comforting to know that someone who loves him even more than I do (which truly seems impossible) is looking out for him and is going to take care of him. I am thankful that he has trusted me enough to send me that sweet little boy. What a joy he has been in my life.